Catch my Vibe?

Unless i know you, i will never speak to you. That kinda makes the people that hear me, to be word of mouth referrals, so blame them. Anything you see me do in public is to distract myself cause I'm shy. I figit alot and never go out unless I need to. I always think people are gonna think Im weird if I engage them, I avoid eye contact regularly. I always know real quik if someone likes me.

I'm not sure how much of a clue it is, but for as long as I can remember,  I always hid behind my hair. It was my silent tongue. If I was comfortable or if I thought you were pretty, I'd take it out of the pony tail and fluff it, all the while acting like I didn't notice you. If you were stuffy and had lame kids you were sheltering or found myself in a formal setting, I'd put it up in a ponytail. If I thought you didnt like me and it was down, I'd hide under it. I guess I should say I've always had beyond shoulder length long red hair, at least for the last 25 yrs.

I swore I'd never cut it. Many badguys wanted to do just that. I got mad at my sister for publicly judging me when I knew she was just trying to get rid of me cause she cashed my 750 dollar check and this guy was about to tell me, so I straight cut off all of it , pony tail against the back of my head with a gerber knife and threw it in her face...that was non verbal clue. I got laid that night...

Nowadays I slick it back and hairspray it. I'm older now and want to be invisible, unless I think your pretty...

Oh yeah, I first grew it out in the 80's when I moved from Chicago to West Texas. I listened to Rock and wasn't a mexican or a cowboy, so I gre it long, hoping i would look dangerous and people would avoid me. Soon I found out there were others like me, and here i thought i invented long hair to defend me. The hairspray bands to come really betrayed my sense of, well -self. 

The only other non verbal clues I give are when Im walking and people are watching. People watching can change my whole gait. If I like you and think you may be cool, Ill walk real relaxed. If you are in a group of home boys Ill freeze up if yall are mean muggin, and if your stylin and chillin I put on the swagger. When Im in a bar and someone start looking at me violently for no reason. I get real straight, then I usually walk up and ask a dumb irrelevant question justtto let em know im not afraid to get in there circle...but i have to be rally threatened to do that. Other wise I usually avert everyones gaze. I always change my body language with every person i encounter. And if i think your pretty, ill start dancing weirds, and shaking my head funny like i can hear music, and I can!